I know I'm kinda stupid. I'm not smart enough like you. but please, do not underestimate me. I chose to live like this. If you dislike me, just shut up or let me know. I don't care. I never care. Your words are just too much. I always say bad things but you? You judge people like you know them well. You don't know me. I have a lot of characters in my life. Such thing like this can actually give others pain. Stress. Frust. Don't you know??? Stress and frustation can actually lead to you to death??! Sound impossible but I'm not lying. These kinds of feeling can kill the cell in the brain, kill the good things in the body. Have you ever heard about the SPM candidate who was dead after 30 minutes anwsering the question?? Yeap! That is an example for what I am saying. Maybe before the day of the SPM, she put herself in a risk situation; stress situation. That's why the brain was too tired that it couldn't work like usual for the next day and collapse just like that. Maybe the nerve system worked too much. Maybe the brain didn't get enough oxygen. Yeah, just like me. My brain doesn't work well. It's not like the oxygen that I breathe is not enough. It's just like my lungs didn't work well. Naaaaahhhh~ I'm okay rite now actually. Right now. Hmmm. Whatever~

People told me that I'm a good listener and advisor. Maybe. I don't know whether it's tru or not. Some said everything that I told them had fixed their life. But someone said this to me, "Kau mcm paham je semua masalah orang. Mcm kau prnah mengalamu semua benda. ke, kau ni mind reader?" .. Huh~ Yeap. I've been through everything. I am sixteen but I think i have lived for 16 million years. From parents to family to friends to love to everthing! Everything I guess. Ohh.. I haven't face death yet lah... Ehh wait.. Ada ada. Once. No thrice. Car accident, guns and suicide. Yeap thrice. Car accident when I was 10. It was not bad actually. It was just... My head. That's all. Guns. On a ferry. It was crazy! Erghhhhh stop talking bout that. Suicide.. I wanted to die last year. I was too stressed at that time but I really thankful to some of friends of mine bcoz they make me change my mind. Yeah I know it was stupid and crazy. Even crazier than a lunatic. So yeah, I'm still alive. Now, suicide is a taboo. I've realixe. I am a Muslim. Suicide is a SIN. Even when you think to do it so. It's SIN. Love? Hah.. nothing to say anymore bcos I don;t want to remember all the deleted memories... it's silly so much! Friends? Yeah There's nothing to share bout this. It's a lot ok.. a lot. So, I'll remember all these things when someone talk about their problems to me. Really. But I ignore this feeling. This fcuking feeling. So, here, I would like to stand up and say something what I think is right and TRUTH. You have to live with problems. Do not.... You know, fcuk up or whatever, Just solve the problems. Damn I miss Math. Hahahahahaha xD LOL

*Sigh*
Anyway, I don't know why I'm posting this but... it's just that.. I wanted you guys to open your mind and think.. Why would you spend your time thinking that you guys are futile. Idle? Or whatever. Just live your life. Make it extravaganze. Make it awesome. Sad, Mad, happy, love or these are just feelings. Feelings is a nature. Sometimes there is happiness in sadness or hatred in devotion. Humans are just too ordinary. Extraordinary.

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